My favorite time of day is the moment when I walk with Liam into his room , sit down in the rocking chair beside his bed, settle him into my arms and begin to sing –Nighty night Sleep tight I will see you in the morning light Mommy loves you Daddy loves you And Jesus loves you too
This is the same lullaby my mom sang to me every night for many years and that I sang to Emily and Isaac as well. Now it’s Liam’s turn.
If you were to ask me just what I was telling my children as I sang those words over and over, night after night, I don’t know that I could have put it into words. Tonight ended that.
Tonight, after snuggling for a little while (several repetitions of our lullaby), Liam decided he just wanted to snuggle (rather than nurse & snuggle) so I decided to change things up a little. I found a new song by Natalie Grant, a lullaby, in my music library on my phone and pressed play.
It was only moments before the tears started to flow. This is what I have been saying to my children every time I have sung this song. This is what my mom was saying to me every night as she tucked me in and every day, every night, after until she finally left the room.
Poor Liam. Tonight he had to wipe my tears off his face as they dripped down and gently fell on him. I cried for my children, for my mom, for loss and for love.
Then I left the room.
Check out Natalie’s song “When I Leave The Room” here – grab a tissue though – you just might need it. I’ve included the lyrics below.Good night looks like we made it through the day The moon sighs and I know that we’re okay Sleep tight I love to watch you drift away I would come with you but on my knees I’ll stay Good night five little fingers holding mine Take flight into your dreams and lullabies There’s nothing more that I can do But just fall more in love with you And ask the angel armies to stand by When I leave the room I’m gonna fail you I already have Ten thousand times I will fall down flat You’ll have a seat in the front row of everything that I don’t know And all I’m trying to be you’ll see Good night there will be storms that we come through In time we will slay dragons me and you I’ll always wanna hold you tight Keep you safe with all my might So I will leave Jesus next to you When I leave the room And you will run ahead as if you know the way And I will pray more than one should have to pray There will be words we can’t take back Silences too And I’ll be on my knees you’ll see One night when I am old and unsteady You’ll want me to fight but I’ll tell you that I’m ready When there’s nothing left to do I will still be loving you Then you’ll fold your fingers into mine and I’ll let Jesus hold you tight When I leave the room written by Bernie Herms, Nichole Ellyse Nordeman & Natalie Diane Grant Lyrics (C) Universal Music Publishing Group 2013